I was always teased for being so sensitive. When I was younger, I got really upset when someone told me off for doing something that was wrong. Me, being the good boy, meant that this would not happen often. But, when it did, it affected me badly.
The reason I am writing about this today is because I took the wrong turn in my life. I had decided that I needed to ‘man up’ in my life. I thought by not showing my emotions; my true feelings, it would make things better for my life. This turned out to not be the case. What happened was I became so out of touch with my emotions , that I almost became a robot. I did not know how to respond to situations. I kept telling myself I must be a sociopath, but rather I was just not letting myself feel.
This only changed up until recently. I never used to let my emotions out. I did have anger management problems, but they subsided once I closed my emotions down.
You may think this is a good thing, it really isn’t. You begin to feel isolated and alone,yet you do not realise this because you don’t let yourself feel. This dilemma continued in me for years. Until I finally broke it, i cried. It felt amazing. Since then, I have began to embrace my emotions; loving myself more.
Sometimes, the most manly thing you can do, is just show your emotions, be vulnerable. It will make you happier in the long run.