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Do ever feel so excited that you cannot contain yourself? Well I felt that way yesterday when going to see Avengers Endgame. God it was brilliant, I loved every single moment of it.

But something felt off, sometimes the hype does not pay off, it never really does because your brain creates its own expectations for what it wants. Nobody’s level of excitement is the same for another, that is impossible as we are all so different. It’s like when you buy something online, the anticipation of what you are getting is sometimes higher than the joy received. You like the feeling of receiving what you want, once you have it your brain has nothing to look forward to. This can have a negative effect on what you got , and cause you to have doubts.

It’s better sometimes to wish you wanted something than actually receive it. You could and most likely will tarnish the way you feel once you get it. Because the Russo brothers didn’t do Endgame exactly how i wanted it, you could say it was underwhelming. But, i remember being so hyped for it before, which made me happy.

Choose what you want in life wisely, don’t set your expectations way too high otherwise you’ll always be disappointed.

Well, this has happened too many times in my life. I have probably even made a blog about this before, but it is important to me.

This was popped into my head yesterday when I was in the library at school. Avengers Endgame, the hype was so high for this movie. Some of my friends had arranged to see the film, and they had told me which was fine: I’m seeing it with my family anyway. But, some of my closer friends had also arranged, and it wasn’t until I overheard their conversation that they froze and said oh, do you want to come? They could of just told me and I would of been fine, but acting that way can tell you a lot about a friendship.

Being honest is the best reaction to have, don’t dig yourself a grave when trying to get out an awkward situation. Just saying they forgot about you because such and such, is better than hesitating. Friendships are built on trust, don’t be scared to talk to them.

I think this time it is due to my physical health, for instance, I had a regime that I had implemented where I would workout every morning for at least 15 minutes. It was great, it required minimal enthusiasm for me to get started, and produced high levels of happiness for me and my body.

But then, I lost my bit of motivation once I started the new academic year. I thought that I had lost all hope on the idea of keeping fit.

This was a very bad idea, I began to put on weight, and lost the body that I had worked so hard to keep. I didn’t really notice until I was on a dog walk, and I became out of breath after running for a bit. It was mind-boggling.

So, as I sit here when I have been ill, I ask myself “what has my unfitness done to my body’s strength ?”. The answer is pretty obvious, it has weakened!

I have been able to reflect on all my shortcomings over the past term, and I will come out of this a more determined and ambitious person, someone who will keep fit.

Right, this is going to be a very personal blog today about what has happened to me, and still happens to me (but i am getting over it).

When i was younger (maybe 10 or 11) i was around a relative’s house in the afternoon. I found some money on the table, maybe £20 or so, and i took it without thinking of the implications and used it for my own desire.

Now, at this point i was oblivious to the world around me, but it was not until this relative died, that i became haunted about what i had done. I had watched enough scary videos about Ghosts and people returning from the dead that i feared this relative’s presence after they died. I thought “What if they come back for unfinished business and scare me?”. Until even this week, i sleep in a way in every way possible to block scary things happening in the night.

My guilt of what i had done emalgumated into the fear of a loved one.

Today i told my mum this story, the first time in about 6 years that i had told anybody. The weight has not been lifted off my shoulders yet but, it was a relief to finally tell somebody.

I don’t want to remember my relative as someone i feared, she was lovely and kind and wouldn’t want to hurt you as she had the biggest heart. If their is an afterlife, she is there, living happily and care free as she deserves. I love her so much.

The message here is that guilt is baggage upon your shoulders, you need to tell somebody about your issues if they are to be resolved. This is my first step, to finally break out my bubble and stop being afraid.

So, I have been reading Ant Middletown’s book “First man leading from the front” . I have only read the first 70 pages of the book, but it is ready turning to be one of the best books I have read in a long time.

One of the lessons I have learnt so far is about defining yourself. Learning to accept that you react to different situations in different ways is crucial for being your own person.

No one is one person entirely , we have many different personalities. If you don’t notice this, someone else will and will define you to be this specific person.

Be better than this, define yourself and stick to your belief. You’ll be able to give 100% in everything

I know this sounds cheesy, but it is quite true. After a break from the school life, it was a time for growth and rehabilitation. But it doesn’t always turn out to be the way you thought it would.

I felt quite burnt out last term, i needed this break to find inspiration and confidence in myself for the rest of the year. Being knocked down and having to find the reason to keep going can be hard.

So, what am i going to change when i go back to school. Well firstly i want to be able to focus primarily on my work, disregarding any distraction that comes my way. I also want to be able to set my time, so that i have time for friends and also time for work.

Take a few seconds, to write down your goals for the next few weeks, what do you want to achieve. Focus on them for now. In about two weeks, check up on said goals and see if you completed them. You’ll be amazed!

Ever get those days where, your brain just gives no ideas to your brain, no stimulus or anything.

When I say blank I mean it is when you cannot think properly (not medically an issue).

That is kind of how my brain has been for the past two days. Being mentally drained and burnt out is hard to bounce back from, but you must if you want to succeed in life.

If it takes too long for your brain to bounce back, maybe it is time to find new inspiration for yourself. Go surround yourself with different stimuli- new and old- to reimburse the sense of life.

Me? I go to the forest when it is quiet, to be alone with my thoughts and gather myself . It is where I came up with the idea to start a blog.

My brain maybe blank at the moment, but soon enough it will come back. I just need to find myself.

I am writing this whilst in a state of regret, i accidentally signed up to work today when i was going to spend time with my family. I woke up this morning and laid there for a solid hour just thinking about what i had done. “Why did i do that?” “That was so stupid of you” i kept telling myself. This led me to a negative start to the day.

Now i am trying to turn this attitude around. Sure, i missed out on a day with my family, but i get to help at work where i will be paid and therefore able to spend a bit on said family to show my love for them. I could not do this all the time because then i would never see them, but the concept of a positive mindset is important for being successful in life.

We all have regrets, but it is time we start getting rid of them. No good has ever come from carrying the luggage of which it is. It is pointless and will only tear you down. Live with no regrets, from there you achieve more certainty in your actions, make tough choices that you wouldn’t of done before, and become who you have chosen to be.

Remember, Positive Mental attitude and live with no regrets.

So, i have been reading a book recently called “Mindset” by Dr Carol S. Dweck. I started it yesterday, and oh boy is it a great book so far.

The bits i have read so far have been about the Growth Mindset concept. This is where you are constantly looking for ways to improve yourself for: academic or even social reasons.

It links heavily into the idea of Kaizen (what i learned about in Economics) which means “continuous improvement”. I am trying to apply this to my life so that i achieve my goals in life. It doesn’t mean you are always studying, but as i have learned from other books, it is the way you study not the amounts.

How will can you apply this to your life i hear you ask, there are many different ways that you can do this. Firstly, when studying, just assess yourself at the end of each study session. Write down these three questions:

“What did i actually do in this session?”

“What did i learn?”

“How could i improve for next time?”

The three questions stated above can be detrimental for your development. There are always ways to improve, because no one is perfect.

Try it out for 30 days, i know i will be.

I love to work, it is absolutely great to just knuckle down and achieve something or learn something you didn’t know before. But every so often you get that day off. A day where anything is possible, it excites me.

So quickly society has fallen into the strict schedule of working and resting at the weekend without trying anything new besides it, but a day off can accomplish that.

Today i am so grateful for the day where, i have no links to work, not only does it relax the mind. But it is a stimulant for new ideas to emerge in the brain. You might even gain a better understanding for a topic you did not know beforehand.

So the next time you get a day off, don’t spend it all in bed or on your phone, do something. You could read a book, or pursue a hobby you had not gotten into yet, but have been dying to try.

Days off are precious, don’t waste it.