Ever feel that?, well you are not the only one. This will only be a quick post but here is a basis of what i think about loneliness and how to deal with it.
Since i was very young, i have always liked being on my own. I yearned for my own space where i could be alone and od whatever i pleased. Then i started watching horror movies at a young age with my sister, since then i still hate being the only one in the house. Even to this day occasionally. I know this isn’t all about me, but there is a point to be made here. Whilst i was growing up the sense of being alone was meditative for me. The sense of not having to communicate with anybody for a certain period of time just made it so i could focus on myself. I was a very selfish kid with anger issues alright!
It was as i grew older, i understood the importance of communication with the outside world. I became sort-of depressed during the school summer holidays as i would not communicate with anybody who i identify as my friends. Even now i struggle to communicate with my friends because i am subconsciously afraid “what if i say something wrong”. I think this neglection of communication did a number on my communication skills as a young adult/ teen. I will never be able to get across what i truly mean because i cannot form the words required to do so. this has led to falling out with friends and in some cases weird interpretations such as “i led them on” in a romantic sense, but that is for another post.
The point here is that it is important to communicate with those around you, if you want to see change in how you are perceived and how you communicate, you must have the confidence to talk to someone. Talking to someone new helps, you both don’t know how each other process, it is a great learning experience.
From My View 