Change – how to deal with it.

It always happens, all around us. Recently a change happened in my life concerning my friends and our relationship. We have began to grow apart after 4 years of strong companionship, and that is okay. When you are entered into a new environment, you have to adjust to the coherent changes around you, with my friend it was new people joining. Yet i was dumbfounded and confused when this occurred as i thought it was down to me that caused this. Am i not good enough? I was so worried that i got more into politics and the problem of Brexit just so i could join in on the conversation. It was not making me happy that i had to do research just to retain our level of friendship as it just felt like work. Friends should never be tedious work to keep. Learning to disconnect from that friendship is proving to be harder than expected, when you see them walk past you to talk to others can be hard. I sometimes still believe i am still at fault for the change. It is therapeutic in a away for me to type this up even if nobody sees this, as at least i am getting it off my chest. Writing this has made me realize some of the changes i need to make to myself, for one being have a positive mental attitude about yourself. Before inviting in others i must love myself for all my mishaps. You are the person you speak to most so you must LISTEN. Although H has better friends now, we still speak in lessons and have the occasional banter, but we are not as close as before, and that is fine.