From My View

It might just be me, but does your mind ever exacerbate scenarios, to make the scene look more cinematic? This happens sometimes with me; I don’t get why; but it is a gift and a curse. This is because, it shows that i have a good imagination. I like to make stories up, so this is great material. However, it is difficult because i can lose sense of reality. I may do it to put myself on a stool, to make myself seem better than the average joe. Unfortunately, this is unrealistic. 

I carry many traits that others do not have. It is just in my mind where things get crazy. Its energetic and eager, if it doesn’t get it, then it can begin to go numb; trying to find things for stimulus. This is why i cannot sit still; i need to be doing something always.

Why am i writing this? It may be cathartic, but it is a realistic reminder about oneself. Over 70% of the US public in a study said they were above average. You are not, you must work to be above it, but you are equal to everyone else.

This is not supposed to be depressing. Love those hinderances in yourself, work to improve this in everyday life.

Just remember you are equal to everyone.

🙂

I have started going on early dog walks in a nearby woods, which is typically quite quiet. This is great, because i have the forest to conduct my satanic rituals; praying to the lord karen. Obviously, i am joking, but i love the freedom that it gives me. 

It is a form of meditative practice. I get there, and i take deep breaths; in and out. My mind can relax from the stresses of our lives (especially at this time) and my mind is open to discover new thoughts. For example, i am planning to write a book, so i am going to the forest to get ideas and stories which i might like to write. This is helpful, because i have quite a few ideas now.

Walking is the best exercise you can do. It is free, energising and great for your mind. But, you can’t do it too much! Gotta #stayhomesavelives. Getting out into nature is breathtaking and brings an abundance of joy.

Get outside, to get out of your mind. But, not too much.

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You know what I love my than anything? My family is the answer.

These individuals are the most kind and caring that i have ever known. I’m writing this today, as a little appreciation for these wonderful people in my life.

Firstly, there is my mum. She is wonderful. She gives so much to other people, discounting money and food. She loves everything and everyone who enters her life. I will never forget when she saved up her money to buy my sister and I a Nintendo DS each, it was the best present. I still have it. I love to make fun of her, because she is so funny. She also squeaks when raising her voice ; which is hilarious. I live her a lot, she has given up a lot so i could have a good life, for that i am grateful.

Then, there is my sister. One of the most annoying people in my life, but also the funniest girl i have ever met. I really value when we were younger, and we would play together, making silly faces on her ipod with filters on. Snapchat was not even around yet! She is very loving and stands her ground when necessary. She is selfish for all the right reasons, but also selfless.

Then there is my stepfather. One of the funniest men i know. Even whilst in quarantine , he is able to crack a smile and laugh about random scenarios and people he encourages me to do better and try new things; which is great. He also makes my mum happy, and that is the best trait about him. Also, he gets very nice cars from his work.

Then, there is my stepbrother and the dogs. All of them bring me joy when i see them. On dog walks, seeing the dogs run around and go crazy is fun to see; they are happy. With my stepbrother, he loves to play games and chill just as much as the next person, but he is also very talented in academia and problem solving. Sometimes, i am jealous.

All these amazing people in my life that i take for granted. I wrote this out today because i now know how important it is to cherish these people. In uncertain times such as these, there is nothing more important than family. They give you love and attention. Most importantly, they will always love you.

Show them that you love them, spend time with them.

Have an awesome day!

🙂

I am writing this from my phone, 2 minutes after i woke up. I am doing this because i was reading online about how to become a better writer. One article said, just write as soon as you get up, hence what i am doing.

Since quarantine had started, i had noticed myself getting more sleep; which is brilliant. I love to sleep, but there is a thing called too much sleep. So, i am trying to schedule myself to be in bed by 10/10:30 and wake up at 7 am. 

On to the main topic, the reason i titled this. I am really inspired by Jocko Willik, and his persistence to be proactive, productive and determined. On his instagram, he posts every single day a picture of his watch;showing 4:35 am, to tell you when he wakes up. It gets me going because i know i can be disciplined too. I don’t need to wake up at 4, it would wake the dogs up, but i can get things done.

There needs to be balance between work and play. With the cancellation of my a levels, it has tended to be more play. I just needed to remind myself to be disciplined, because that leads to freedom.

Have a brilliant day friends!

🙂

Okay, so it has now been over a week since quarantine started, and i have come to realise how bored i can get without aiming towards a goal. After moping around, eating way too much chocolate, and playing pokemon platinum and on my nintendo switch, i have realised how much i hate chill time.

I love to work. Working towards a goal gets me on a high. After reflecting on this past week, i realise i must make some changes if i am going to cope in this new way of life. Exercise is so important. No matter how you do it, you must get out of the house and do some exercise, clear your mind and help your body.

I had to find a creative outlet. I really like to work on long term projects, because it keeps my mind distracted. Doing long dog walks, and courses online are exciting to me.

Is it difficult to stay away from other people? Absolutely. The world has become somewhat like the walking dead. If you see someone, they could be infected, stay away!

Podcasts have really made me stay sane in this time. I know I have already written about these, but it feels great, to be in on a conversation with other likeminded people, from the safety of your own home.

I can already feel the drawbacks of eating unhealthily. My stomach is bloated, and I need to go to the bathroom frequently. This is not the way you should be living during this time . Use this to get a healthy regimen going. Don’t sleep too much because your body does not need it. Moreover, stay awake long enough to keep on track with any commitments you may have; you never know when it will be important.

If you go to bed that night, and don’t think you have accomplished everything you wanted, get out of bed. We have time now, do it.

Get your shit together.

🙂

Have you ever had the feeling, where you are out somewhere, and you really have to go to the bathroom. It is the worst feeling in the world. Our bodies are unpredictable in their asking, we are always unprepared.

So, i am on my way back from having a haircut in town. Its cool, i have a 20 minute walk home now, great! Time to listen to a podcast or music and have a gay o’time. But then, the body says “ make it back in 10 bitch, we gotta go”. I had never felt so worries for myself. What would people do if it just happened right here, right now?

I slowly began to increase my speed as i got closer and closer to home. I was sweating quite a bit (unlike prince andrew) fast walking, but I didn’t care. All i knew is if I didn’t make it home in time, this atom bomb was going to drop. Once i got to my road, i began to run; faster than i have ever have before. I was sprinting just to get to the bathroom. Once i got home, i was relieved, i was so happy. Now, keys, where are they? I had a mild panic attach whilst trying to look at them, contemplating whether i should just poop in the garden. No, i must get to the toilet. So, i smashed the window and broke in to my own house. Only joking, imagine if i did? I found my key, ran in and had the best toilet experience of my life.

So, why am i writing about this. I want to write about experiences in my life, because its funny. I also want to show that life is impossible to plan for. But, there is always a good reason. Appreciate life’s imperfections, embrace when you have the chance to so something different. Someday, it will make a great story.

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When I first found podcasts back in 2016, I was looking for GCSE revision advice. I stumbled across a video on Thomas Frank’s channel to do with revision cards. I know it sounds boring, but when he said he had a podcast called the CIG podcast, I was intrigued. “What is a podcast?” I thought to myself. 

The first time upon opening the Apple Podcasts app and whoosh! I had discovered something I loved.

Podcasts are conversations that interesting people have about interesting topics, and you can only hear them talk about it ( unless they record it visually as well). I thought there was only a few podcasts, but then I found HUNDREDS OF THEM. Loads of little ear biscuits that I can consume to my hearts end. 

I couldn’t stop listening. On the bus, on the train, in the car and walking home; podcasts came everywhere with me. Some were amazing, some were just awful, but I was grateful that I can critique these with free will. 

Podcasts taught me something interesting. I am unable to focus on two things at a time; my attention is to split between them. Though I try to make myself focus on both, I can’t. Walking is about the only thing I can do and listen, because podcasts don’t use your eyes, but anything else, such as listening to music whilst revising, is hard for me to do. 

Also, podcasts taught me to have a balanced life when it came to usage. It is all well and good listening to other conversations, but when you’re not creating interesting ones yourself, that is when it is an issue. Podcasts give interesting topics to talk about, use it sometimes.

Now, in 2020, even with the quarantine happening around us all, I still do not listen to podcasts as much as I used to. Do I sometimes listen to a 3 hour Joe Rogan experience? Yes, but I look for the best one beforehand, so I’ll enjoy it. Is my focus less diverted these days, that’s the beauty of noise cancelling headphones, but without listening to any music (OCD fires up).

Overall, podcasts have made an extreme impact on my life. They have made me more conversational, taught me different tricks in charisma, academia and psychology. I will always love podcasts,  remember you can make a conversation interesting the same way you hear on a podcasts. Don’t always listen to what’s in your pocket, listen to those around you.

These are really cool. Dreams is your brain processing the information of events in the day into a simple and cohesive state. For us, we get to experience these wild visual times that we know of as dreams. 

Recently, I had started writing down my dreams; as soon as I wake up in the morning. This is so I can understand, or interpret what I was dreaming about.

Here is an example.

“Went on a dog walk with my dog at night, saw two people at night walk past. We went into the field for a little bit, saw two middle aged men walking up on the path by the field, i thought they were ghosts, somehow i got home and took a photograph of them, my friend agreed they were.”

This is not just weird, its confusing to me, because I am not sure what my brain was processing at the time. I find dreams so fascinating for this reason, they make no sense!

I really want to try to lucid dream. This is where you are aware that you are dreaming, and can then control it. I know so many people who have done this before, I really want to do so as well, but I just can’t seem to do it.

We will see how tonight goes.

Have an awesome day 🙂

I like to think of myself as an honest individual. I like to talk to my friends and family truthfully about what my issues are, what I am struggling with them about, and how we can fix this. But, I never used to be like this. I always lied. This was to make myself look better to other people, so that they would find me interesting. Now, after finishing secondary education, this bad habit of mine has serious repercussions, that I have spent time on repairing.

Here is a personal example. When I was younger, my favourite YouTuber at the time was pewdiepie. Whenever we went to Brighton to visit my Aunt, I would subtly keep a look out for him, so I could meet him. After these trips, I would come home and tell my friends “ I met pewdiepie”. My friends were obviously in awe of this, they asked to see a photo. I thought “crap, now I have to make an excuse or produce a fake photo to show that I met him”. Eventually, I just said the photo was not on my phone, and I waited for them to forget about it.

This is just the tip of the iceberg. I got into the habit of lying after this to get the appreciation I thought I wanted. I lied to make a good impression on my first girlfriend, but then the relationship ended because she was not dating the real me.

When you believe your lie, you can make up anything. 

More recently, I lied about something that definitely did not happen on New Years Eve to a couple of my friends. There was a really cool dude who knew all kinds of cool people, and I just wanted to impress him so I could be apart of his group. But then, word spread about my lie, and other friends started asking me if this was true. So, then I had to lie about the lie to cover up that I lied. Sound confusing? Yes it is.

But, it came to a point very recently that I discovered something incredible, I didn’t know myself. I did not know what I liked, or what I wanted to do with my life. My lies had hidden my true identity. For example, I lied that I love watching loads of anime, so I could hang out with certain friends, when truthfully I only like a certain few (My Hero Academia, of course). Something I like to call The Lying Spiral can destroy your identity. 

My point is, don’t do what I did. Lying will just make more problems for you down the line. Friends may bring up something you told, and you had made it up and now have to expand it. Nobody deserves to be lied to, unless you are the American people – looking at you Trump!

Don’t get caught by the lying spiral, instead reflect on yourself, take time to get to know you.

(Also watch My Hero Academia, it is very good :))

So, I haven’t written a blog in a long while. I said at the start of this journey that I was going to so I could improve my literary ability when it came to writing essays. It was a selfish desire to please myself and not others.

What happened though? Well after the last post I created, I took a step back and found myself in a creative rut. I was trying to put an image of myself out into the world; this productive, charismatic individual, that I didn’t even know myself. This is what the internet is comprised of. It is almost if people online are ashamed when it comes to letting people in, and being truthful with themselves. I struggled with this for a while. I set myself challenges everyday to “be nice to my mum” or “stay positive no matter what” that I lost touch with my emotions. I forgot how to feel. It could be considered sociopathic, you might say.

Moreover, I decided that I would embellish myself in exercise, driving lessons and revision for my a levels. This worked for a while, but I soon became bored, uninterested in my goals. 

Inevitably, this rut stayed with me for a while. Going into 2020, I thought this would be great to reset my mind. So I decided to be honest in all situations. I could not of thought of a better idea. I saw my confidence grow, my opinions became known. I was no longer a nobody at school. Did I go overboard?Yes, many times. 

Then this pandemic started. I have tried to stay positive throughout all of this, and seem to be doing okay so far. 

These are my do’s and don’ts for quarantine

Do:

Speak to your friends as frequently as you can

Start a new hobby, or pick up something that you have not done before

Exercise and get out of the house, as much as you can

Don’t:

Read the news too often

Go on trending on twitter

do nothing with your time, watch Homes under the Hammer, and be a lazy bum

Stay in your room, you will go insane

Go on your phone too much, your brain will fry

I know I have a purpose. I have to stay positive throughout this all. What is the point in being depressed in a situation you have no control in. What is the point of complaining for something you voted for. 

Listen to the government. Stay inside. There is more than enough to do. 

Just don’t forget to exercise 🙂