YouTube detox

A month on from my last detox, that did not go that well in all honesty. My addiction to the internet, especially YouTube, has began to spike again. I find myself watching endless streams of videos, constantly refreshing my recommended tab; waiting for the next piece to catch my eye.

This has affected my health in ways that I did not know it could. I find that my screen time has increased by a large margin. Though I watch Anime on Crunchyroll, it is not as frequent as the Google site. I am now well aware of my existence, and how I am wasting it, consuming the success of others. I keep telling myself: I am better than this, I can do more. But I am always so hesitant to do so. It is like I need to go on there to be happy.

That isn’t right, I need to find true happiness within myself, not through objects. So, for the next 30 days, YouTube is off the table. I cannot go onto it for any necessary reasons.

It is time to see how strong my self control is.

Have fun

I am not going to lie to you, I did not come up with this idea. I had just finished watching a video by John Fish, a YouTuber who produces content focusing on productivity and life. He raised a good point about this pandemic, and how we should be responding. His dad gave him some good advice, “whatever you’re doing, make sure you’re having fun with it”. What this is saying is to not focus on what you can achieve from doing work, studying for exams or working out, just as long as you are having fun whilst doing it, the results will come to you.

This changed my perspective of quarantine. A lot of it I have spent trying to be produxtive, so I wouldn’t look like a failure afterwards. But, this mentality is wrong. I shouldn’t be pushing always for the end goal, it only matters if I had fun doing it in the process. For example, in Year 13, I spent a lot of it with my friends, having a good time and forming those strong bonds. There was another girl, who focussed completely on her studies, and did not have fun along the way. As a result, she doesn’t have the same friendship intensity as I do now.

This doesn’t mean to not care about your future. It is quite the opposite. However you go about chasing your dreams, make sure you have fun whilst doing it. The end result will not be so amazing that it will change your mood. The journey is more important than the destination.

I’m definitely going to implement this into my life, will you?

My time offline…

A couple of days ago, i said that i would be taking some time off the internet to have a break from it all. I said this with every intention, that i would find happiness and joy in doing different actions in everyday life, compared to the norm.

This did not go to plan.

So, the 1st day went pretty well. I woke up on time, feeling well rested from the night before ( no phone present). I had my breakfast, and took the dog for a walk; bringing my phone in case of an emergency. It was then that i encountered my first problem, my morning routine was all over the place. See, I use my phone for the workout apps, and as a timer for meditation. Without being able to use it, i found it difficult to exercise, and as a result i ended up exercising less than usual.

However, there was a benefit. I got really into one of the books i was reading. In the beginning, it was difficult to concentrate, but as i progressed, it became easier to direct all attention onto the book. We live our lives through the process of multitasking, that we forget it makes us less productive.

Another problem occured, i felt really bored. I never realised how much my phone takes my attention away from my everyday life. All of what i do is on my phone. Not being able to blog, or practice a new skill made life pretty difficult. Regrettably, i ended up going on my phone to fulfil this need, for a limited time.

Another benefit i did find is that i had free time in the evening. So, instead of sitting down and watching TV, i jumped in my car, and drove to a nearby forest; to have a walk. It was relaxing, i felt my imagination transpire past boundaries i thought was impossible. I felt very relaxed.

As the day came to an end, i realised that i had received a message from my boss, where i needed to be online. Again, i had to open my phone to transcribe an email. Besides this, the first day and a half was pretty successful.

As i come to the end now, i do not see this challenge as a failure. Technology has grown to have a larger influence in my life, than i had previously imagined. But, this is not all bad. I use services such as YouTube for entertainment, whilst still pursuing my writing and skill-building courses.

It is all about balance. You do not need to strip everything away from your life, but to keep the essentials that you value dearly. I will cut down my screen time ( using the Apple service ” Screen time” ) but continue to use my devices to improve myself as a person.

Your turn: What could you cut back on which is not adding value to your life?

No excuses…

What is something that you have always wanted to do? Is it to climb a mountain, or write your own screenplay?

If there is one, why haven’t you tried it yet?

For me, I want to write a book one day, and get it published to the kindle store for others to read. This is because I love to read others work, and would be thrilled if they could experience the same joy by reading mine. The reason I haven’t done this yet is because of my fear. I am afraid that I am not linguistically skilled enough to produce a high quality fiction book; there is not enough time for me to write a book; even though there definitely is. I have made all these excuses to try and convince myself this is not the right way forward.

This is the same with other physical activities, such as going to the gym or going on a hike. You may say ” It is cold today, I don’t want to go out in case I get a cold’ . Our brain then processes this excuse, and makes a verdict on whether you should go out today and exercise, or watch the latest episode of your favourite TV show. Our minds work with us and against us.

The truth of the matter is, there is no real legitimate excuse ( besides major health issues) to not pursue what you want in life. Working a 9-5 and always feel tired? Then try to work around this; put a few hours in before and after work on your passion project. If it is something you want to pursue, then your excitement to continue becomes your motivation. Sacrifices may have to be made, to make your dreams a reality, but if it is important to you, it won’t matter as much.

We always forget how precious time is. No matter how much money you will ever own, you can never buy time back. How about we all use this blessing to the best of our ability while we can. We all only get one life, why not start living it?

If you can’t, what is your excuse?

There isn’t one.

Hesitation

I am writing this whilst I listen to the Gary Vee experience on my phone. Just thought I would give it a shoutout, because it is a very good podcast.

Hesitation, this is something we all have to deal with. It is the back of your brain which activates when you undertake an action, which you may not usually do. It is the feeling of “nnaech” if you can imagine; in your head. It is the feeling of uncomfortableness.

This topic has cropped up in my mind recently as I have began speaking to new people. Going to university is something I am nervous about; what I am going to do and who I am going to meet. SO, I have started speaking to new people, to close the gap of my nerves.

There is this one person that I really enjoy talking with. But, I cannot fully enjoy this to the amount I intend to because I am nervous. I am nervous that the way I live ( which has been structured throughout my life) is going to be unpredictable. Getting close, In a relationship scenario is unpredictable; and it is beautiful. Certainty is what I have subjected myself to, for the past 17 years.

Conversely, I am excited for this new experience. Indulging in a new type of life is choosing more off the menu of life. I have never let myself try to do new things, by doing this, my life will change, and that is okay.

So, what advice do I give to myself and everyone reading this? When you get the hestistation feeling; in the back of your head, and you feel the urge to stay way you are. Embrace the feeling, this is what you should be doing. Whatever gives you the twitch, is the next step to get the life you want.

Keep picking off the menu of life, the price does not matter. Only then will you get the best desert.