Over the past few days, I began to consolidate with myself, almost like a pep talk, on how we are going in our life, where we can improve, and what may be causing us issues. One of the areas that I was struggling with was that I was constantly tired. At first I thought it was because of what I was eating, though I remembered that my family doesn’t consume the same heavy amount of carbohydrates as we use to, but still a substantial amount.
This tiredness puzzled me for a few days, but after a while I realised what the problem was.
I had been associating my entire life as a chore, work that I had to complete in order to call my day a success. I would go to work, do the best I can, then come home and perhaps do some baking for the next day ( I get to bake brownies!) and then head to bed.
In addition to all of this, most nights I would spend up in my room, doing nothing but browsing and keeping my phone on silent. I thought I would benefit from the silence; after being around people all day, I thought this was right. Soon did I realise the importance of staying in touch with friends and family, they are your support line at the end of the day.
This period of total nothingness would eat me up inside. The constant idea that “I should be doing something, but I don’t know what it is!” was playing on loop in my head. When I do nothing in a day, I get very self conscious and angry with myself; calling myself a failure.
Once I had summed up all of this, I identified how tired I actually was. Being constantly glued to a phone, computer and work, never let my brain rest. Moreover, all opportunities being presented to me were turned down, I wanted my time.
One of the first changes I made was accepting that some things you “have to” do in life are actually what you “get to” do instead. As I am in the process of this now, one of the other solutions is to have a good sleep schedule, and try to make the environment comfortable enough for sleeping (ironic how tired I am writing this bit).
I want to keep this as brief as I could. Please take a break if you are tired. Humans are not evoled enough to make working at a supermarket a necessary and habitual need for survival.
So the main cookie of advice I will give you is to stop working as hard, and start living healther, through what I displayed earlier.