Say Thank You.

Embracing our gratitude for other people’s actions has always been a key principle in many peoples’ lives. For me, it comes and goes the level of which I am grateful for others. Sometimes, I will feel an abundance of happiness and gratitude for those around me, sometimes I don’t represent it enough.

But today, I was reminded of what great things others do for me.

When I was learning to drive; last year, I was being taught by this elderly man who had been a professional for decades. He was always extremely kind and would go out of his way to help others; definitely made me feel confident and focused with my driving.

Besides all of the progression in the course, we would have these in depth conversations about all topics. It was one of the reasons I wanted to study psychology; to have the ability to have conversations, which I feel as though the world is losing.

That man’s kindness and care for others, even if he was not being paid for it, has stayed with me and forever will. I messaged him today to see how he was doing, and he still hasn’t changed.

For people like this in your life, say thank you ❤

YouTube detox

A month on from my last detox, that did not go that well in all honesty. My addiction to the internet, especially YouTube, has began to spike again. I find myself watching endless streams of videos, constantly refreshing my recommended tab; waiting for the next piece to catch my eye.

This has affected my health in ways that I did not know it could. I find that my screen time has increased by a large margin. Though I watch Anime on Crunchyroll, it is not as frequent as the Google site. I am now well aware of my existence, and how I am wasting it, consuming the success of others. I keep telling myself: I am better than this, I can do more. But I am always so hesitant to do so. It is like I need to go on there to be happy.

That isn’t right, I need to find true happiness within myself, not through objects. So, for the next 30 days, YouTube is off the table. I cannot go onto it for any necessary reasons.

It is time to see how strong my self control is.

Hesitation

I am writing this whilst I listen to the Gary Vee experience on my phone. Just thought I would give it a shoutout, because it is a very good podcast.

Hesitation, this is something we all have to deal with. It is the back of your brain which activates when you undertake an action, which you may not usually do. It is the feeling of “nnaech” if you can imagine; in your head. It is the feeling of uncomfortableness.

This topic has cropped up in my mind recently as I have began speaking to new people. Going to university is something I am nervous about; what I am going to do and who I am going to meet. SO, I have started speaking to new people, to close the gap of my nerves.

There is this one person that I really enjoy talking with. But, I cannot fully enjoy this to the amount I intend to because I am nervous. I am nervous that the way I live ( which has been structured throughout my life) is going to be unpredictable. Getting close, In a relationship scenario is unpredictable; and it is beautiful. Certainty is what I have subjected myself to, for the past 17 years.

Conversely, I am excited for this new experience. Indulging in a new type of life is choosing more off the menu of life. I have never let myself try to do new things, by doing this, my life will change, and that is okay.

So, what advice do I give to myself and everyone reading this? When you get the hestistation feeling; in the back of your head, and you feel the urge to stay way you are. Embrace the feeling, this is what you should be doing. Whatever gives you the twitch, is the next step to get the life you want.

Keep picking off the menu of life, the price does not matter. Only then will you get the best desert.